Accepting Sadness…

This picture is what I do when I am sad.
Keep smiling. Pretend everything is okay.
Other ideas I’ve tried (among others . . .):
  • eating
  • not eating
  • exercising
  • not exercising
  • sleeping
  • not sleeping
  • reading
  • not reading
  • believing my thoughts
  • arguing with my thoughts
Know what the hardest thing for me to do is? Move into my feelings of sadness. Too scary. Will I ever come back? Will I die?
This is why I cry in the shower, in the bathtub, and when I am swimming. I feel supported by the water; I merge with the very tears that are coming out of my body and I am in a state of surrender.
My son has a move that he made up in the pool last week.
He floats on his back, puts his arms out like he is a cross, and repeats quietly in a low singing voice: “Water Jesus.”
I think he’s trying to tell me something. Kids are so darn smart before they begin to forget and learn all the grown up stuff. Thanks, Max.
Still okay.
Dana Lynne Curry, Ph.D., has been teaching middle school English (with no low bun) for over 23 years. She is a gReaT-fuL Writer, Storyteller, Teacher, Student, Irreverent GoofBall, Blogger, Servant, Philosopher, Spiritual Collagist (is that a word?), Mama, LoVer of LiFe!, Amazing Friend, and one cOOL pUsSy caT!! Find Dana at funfreeME  on Facebook and on Twitter @funfreeMe1.
  • taffy

    hi dana, just wanted to say i really connected with your post today, and with funfreeME, and wanted to say thanks!

    • danalynnecurry

      So grateful this resonated with you!

  • Jane

    Jesus, I hear you, Dana. I’m struggling right now with my feelings of sadness mixed with anger. Trying to work it out – feel it out & move forward. It’s difficult but necessary for me to come out the other side feeling sane.
    ~ Jane

    • danalynnecurry

      Hi Jane–
      Yes, going around the pain and anger is definitely more expensive than moving through them. I know it only gets better!
      Lots of love,

  • Pam

    Me, too! Thank you so much for this. You have put my thoughts and feelings for the past several months into words in an amazing way. Like Jane, a mix of anger and sadness. Holy Cow. NOT FUN, but necessary. I am being reborn, I think, and will be different… in a good way!!

    • danalynnecurry

      We are all being reborn on a momentary basis. Thank God! It helps when I can stay with my breath . . . and experience life breath by breath.
      Much love,

  • Candace

    Me too!! I’m with you girl:)

    • danalynnecurry

      We are NOT alone, Candace–and we are evolving to the next amazing place!
      Lots of love,

  • Heather

    Beautifully said Dana! Thank you for sharing. We do need to ‘deal’ with our sadness &/or grief or we can’t move forward with our our wonderful lives that are just waiting to be lived! xo

    • danalynnecurry

      Thanks, Heather! Have a beautiful day.