This picture is what I do when I am sad.
Keep smiling. Pretend everything is okay.
Other ideas I’ve tried (among others . . .):
- not eating
- not exercising
- not sleeping
- not reading
- believing my thoughts
- arguing with my thoughts
Know what the hardest thing for me to do is? Move into my feelings of sadness. Too scary. Will I ever come back? Will I die?
This is why I cry in the shower, in the bathtub, and when I am swimming. I feel supported by the water; I merge with the very tears that are coming out of my body and I am in a state of surrender.
My son has a move that he made up in the pool last week.
He floats on his back, puts his arms out like he is a cross, and repeats quietly in a low singing voice: “Water Jesus.”
I think he’s trying to tell me something. Kids are so darn smart before they begin to forget and learn all the grown up stuff. Thanks, Max.
Dana Lynne Curry, Ph.D., has been teaching middle school English (with no low bun) for over 23 years. She is a gReaT-fuL Writer, Storyteller, Teacher, Student, Irreverent GoofBall, Blogger, Servant, Philosopher, Spiritual Collagist (is that a word?), Mama, LoVer of LiFe!, Amazing Friend, and one cOOL pUsSy caT!! Find Dana at funfreeME on Facebook and on Twitter @funfreeMe1.