ALCOHOL – A word that can stir up A LOT of different feelings for people, depending on the meaning we give it. My relationship with the beverage has been quite interesting, to me. For years, I have known deep down that I depended on the lure, in some sort of way (like our son needs his “blanky”). But I confused myself. Why? Because I knew that I could quit quite easily… if I “Wanted” to. “Want” is the key word. My excuses would continually revoke my heart’s knowing, Why give up doing something that can be so enjoyable? I don’t have a problem. After all, just one glass (or two), is no biggie. Plus, I have never been…”A drinker.” So, I didn’t. And, I continued to sip on, or sometimes chug the sweet nectar (here and there), until the whisper came in…loud and clear.
Are You Here Kathleen? It’s me, The Uni-verse.
It was timely to quit drinking alcohol: completely.
Forever? Yes. No. This did not matter. (I know, very hard for the mind to grasp.) I am surrendered to Love in the Here, Now, and I knew (with help from my mentor, Cinnamon Lofton), it was timely for me to give up what I had been drinking, since I was 16-years-old. One thing I have come to know, is that The Uni-verse does NOT give us anything more than we can handle; and it seemed to be an easy discipline…AT FIRST (after all, I wasn’t a big “DRINKER,”anyway).
Then why in the heck would quitting booze, teach me anything? Well, after almost seven months of NOT drinking even a sip of liquor…I learned that I was still (even as an adult), addicted to…FITTING IN with the crowd. I did not drink when I was pregnant, but quitting for my spiritual growth was WAY harder than for a precious baby. And quite a different experience.
The hardest part? Not going along to get along. And being the ONLY person who did not have a seemingly reasonable enough “excuse,” to NOT have a glass of wine. I didn’t miss the alcohol, much; I missed the feeling of…belonging.
I have often been one to take on an over-sense of responsibility for other people’s feelings and comfort; and I received many different reactions, when I chose to STOP the social drink. Reactions I did not like. This was NOT easy. It is amazing how much the one who is “Drinking,” notices the one…who is not. I always did. WHY? Because I was not drinking with all my heart. I was drinking to fit in, take the edge off (my triggers), and/or cope with my created burps of life. I was drinking…because I NEEDED it.
My final test? Spending an entire weekend around alcohol, and with some people I did not know. One stranger said, “You are not drinking? Oh, how ‘Natural’ of you.” The minute my red horns went up, I settled into my heart, and did not MIND. I did it! I no longer NEEDED to fit in. And I created happiness, regardless.
I am FREE.
I went to my weekly Teacher Training Class with my mentor. It was then I knew (with her guidance), I had learned my lesson from The Uni-verse…
And…I CAN drink again.
This time, with awareness.
This time, from a non-addicted, heart space.
Or…I can choose to NOT drink.
The difference? I am at peace either way.
At this point, I am not drinking alcohol. I know that the power of Love will guide me to decide what serves love. For Love is the most powerful source to rely on. It NEVER betrays me.
What is your relationship with Alcohol? Do you think you NEED it? Are you creating peace either way?
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