I don’t know where to begin so I will start with what comes to mind. I am currently at work (only been here a month) unable to focus or concentrate on the task at hand. My head and my heart are still at home with my husband and daughter (currently 7 1/2 months old), which leaves me feeling lost and longing to be home. See, my time at home was cut short because I was laid off last year (the fourth time in the past few years) while I was pregnant, so now my husband gets to stay at home with our daughter until March. My husband and I have been making it through, but over the years we have lost jobs and regained new ones. Unfortunately, however, the pay seems to be getting smaller and smaller with each job.
We are struggling to keep up with our bills (our credit cards have slowly been maxed out) and with Christmas being here it has made it even harder. I had to get rid of my car because I couldn’t afford the repair bill and it was leaking fluid all over the ground, so now I take the bus and walk part of the way to work even when it is -20 degrees or colder. Some days I feel like there isn’t enough time to spend with my husband or daughter and that I am barely hanging on. Basically, I am just going through the motions of life without living it. I like to look on the bright side of things (most people think I am positive and always smiling) but I feel like that part of me is being buried with emotions of being lost and in debt. I don’t know how to turn things around or feel connected to my life again.
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