For some reason, for years now, I’ve been getting the weird feeling that I’m going to die young. When I think this thought, I’m not necessarily worried or anxious about it. Rather, I feel very interested in this thought and want to know what could be causing it. A couple of years ago, I realized that most people around me can picture where they want to be/what they want to be doing in 5, 10, or even 20 years. However, with me, I feel like there’s a strange, blurry film in front of my eyes when I try to see myself in the future. I actually have a pretty good idea of what I’d like to accomplish while I’m alive. It’s just that I feel as if I only have a few more years to accomplish those things. I consider myself a very spiritual person, but not religious. Am I just distracting myself from being human and living in the moment, or what? I feel like I can’t really control this feeling.
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