I am a 27-year-old college graduate with a full-time job, a loving family… & I HATE MY LIFE!!! I graduated from college in 2009 and have since worked a series of dead end jobs as an administrative assistant and am stuck in a serious rut. I don’t have any friends, I don’t have a boyfriend and no social life. I am always in the house and have gotten into this habit of being everyone’s everything. Whenever someone (mom or two sisters) need something, I am the first person they call on. Most people may think, “Oh, well that’s because you’re dependable or reliable,” but it is the most FRUSTRATING thing. I don’t have any kids of my own yet I am practically stuck raising my 3-year-old nephew while my sister (his mother) goes out and parties, goes on dates and is always hanging with her friends. I love my older sister and we are extremely close, but at times I feel SOOO much resentment toward her because she gets to go out and have all these great times, while I’m stuck being the responsible one. I’ve always had so many hopes and dreams for my life and my future, but lately they have all faded away. I realized I’m just going through life. Not really living, just maintaining. I can’t tell you the last time I had fun or felt good with the direction my life was headed. You know it’s funny, every time I do something good for someone they always say, “You’re gonna be blessed.” I want to believe this, but so far that’s not the case. I don’t do things expecting anything in return, but it would just be nice that when I talk to God I feel like He’s actually listening instead of feeling like it’s all in vain. I guess my question is, how do get my hope back? How do I find solace in waiting on God instead of feeling like my life is one giant mistake?
A TDL Reader