Within five minutes of being together, he said, “I have a proposition for you. I’ll let you keep my speakers and hammock if you let me use your car tomorrow to pick up my boyfriend at the airport.”
I fell silent.
There were a rush of things that ran through my head but mostly I immediately felt my answer was no.
I wasn’t happy with the thought of being left without my car for 5 hours (the airport is a 2 hour drive each way), the inability to go to two events I had planned, and the risk that something may happen to the car. But that wasn’t totally it.
It was the energy about how this was presented to me. It didn’t feel right.
Normally I’m very generous with my things and wouldn’t think twice about helping a friend out, but this request didn’t land well.
So I stayed quiet and kept assessing my feelings when my friend came back with, “Well, I just thought it would only be fair because of all the times I let you borrow my scooter last year.”
My jaw dropped. Tears rolled down my face. And I realized in that moment why my heart was telling me no.
The energy of which he came at me. Expecting. Leveraging. Manipulating.
In a way, it was hurtful.
Instead of just asking. Just looking me in the eye as a dear friend and asking me for a favor. AND, being willing to hear the answer and respecting it.
I realized then that we had grown in two different directions. Operating at two different vibrational frequencies.
Throughout the rest of the lunch we made small talk and I grappled with the guilt that was plaguing me….a good friend would just give it, don’t be too attached to your things, he’s gonna hate me forever.
But I just couldn’t go against the feeling in the deepest part of me. My intuition.
My intuition has gotten really loud this past year. It’s probably because I’m deep in my spiritual practice. Most of my work with private clients is using my intuition. To channel the messages they need to hear. To guide them to their best life.
I’ve worked hard to hear my inner voice. Just 4 years ago as a corporate banker in New York City, I would’ve done anything to hear the messages of my Higher Self.
But my mind was Too. Damn. Loud.
And never mind just hearing it. The hard part is trusting it. And listening when it goes against what will make you popular.
I’ve also learned that when you don’t listen, the Uni-verse slaps you hard.
The car will break down. The coffee will spill. The investment will be a scam. It’s like your Higher Self saying, “Hey! I told you so, but you didn’t wanna listen.”
However the cookie crumbles, there are always signs and most of the time we’re not listening.
The heart and soul of you is guiding you in every moment. The heart’s language is the essence of You. Life flows easefully, gracefully, and miraculously when we listen.
The mind is also essential for living on this earth. The mind is the set of skills that help you get to your dream life – like studying, completing tasks, and setting goals. However, the mind is also responsible for questioning, doubting, and conforming.
So here’s the thing: the mind and the heart must be in sync. For most of us, they are not.
Most of us are too worried about what other people will think or pleasing our parents, friends, society to make our choices based on our heart. We usually steer our lives in a socially acceptable manner, according to our mind.
News flash: Heart centered, wildly successful people don’t give a funk about what other people think. Or even if they do, they’ve learned not to listen to that voice and instead listen to their heart.
Our intuition leads us to our Divine Life Purpose, our Divine Soul Partner, and our Divine Right Life.
For so long, we’ve been conditioned to do what other people expect us to. It takes quiet courage to listen and follow the guidance of our heart.
Many times the guidance is not what other people want to hear but it’s imperative we listen.
When we don’t, we feel anxious, tired, sick, uninspired, and unfulfilled. This is also how our body signals “no.”
When we do listen and when our intuition says “yes”, we get chills, happy tears, and spontaneous smiles cross our face. We feel like we’re floating on a cloud.
So, I stuck to my guns and didn’t lend my car to my friend. Two days later, he banged on my door to pick up his hammock and stormed off in a fit. He was angry. His ego in full throttle.
The difference now to some years ago is that listening to my intuition no matter the outcome felt right to me. I was prepared to deal with the social repercussions because of my strong relationship with myself. We may never speak again, but it’s ok. I’ll let the Uni-verse work it out.
Your heart is always speaking to you. Can you quiet the mind enough the listen? Can you find the courage to follow your heart? I’d love to hear about it. Leave a comment below. I read every single one and they fill my heart!
A TDL Reader