How can you know for sure that you are doing the right thing? This is a question I have asked myself millions of times, and a question that I don’t think has a definitive answer. I’ve spent the last few weeks assessing my life to date, I’m 37, and I find myself not knowing what to do when I grow up. I don’t have a job, I don’t have a lover and I don’t have a plan to get either. But people tell me I should have a plan, that I should dig out some Lycra initiative to motivate me into success. People who, with all the right intentions in the world, tell me that I could be so much more, do so much more and achieve everything that I could imagine possible. I don’t disagree with them…but I don’t know what the right thing to do is.
If I had a penny for any of the many times I’ve been told to follow my heart, I could have twelve billion platinum compasses by now…because my heart does not always tell me to act. My heart usually tells me to pursue dreams of a far more abstract nature…to allow love, to allow compassion, to allow life. I don’t know how many people have followed their heart into a meeting with their bank manager…”you are over your overdraft limit”…
“Yes, but it’s a beautiful day and I truly appreciate you telling me!”
We all struggle with the concepts of time, money, space…we all try to do something relating to all of these abstractions, but do we actually make a difference in these areas? Will one more millionaire make as much difference as one more enlightened soul? Will five minutes saved make as much difference as five minutes invested into your life? I don’t claim to know any answers, I simply would like to know if anyone else ever feels this way?
A TDL Reader