In 2004 my husband had to have his heart valve replaced with an artificial valve, so he will be on blood thinners the rest of his life. He had a stroke, leaving him with left-sided weakness. He had a bladder infection and a PA gave him an antibiotic that caused him to have a sub-dural hemmatoma. His cognitive thinking became much worse and he has no more drive to get better. He also has chronic pain and is on morphine and has a neuro-stimulator that should help with his pain. This past January he had severe colitis and his body was shutting down at the hospital. A surgeon removed 3 feet of his colon and he actually recovered from this. Everyday is a struggle to get him to eat, walk, get out of bed. I find it hard to get through some days just watching him in so much pain. I have gone through the grieving process of losing my husband (as he once was) I have accepted that this is our life now. He has asked me to end his life many times. How can I do that knowing how hurt my family would be? But, how can I let him go through this excruciating pain every day as well?
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