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Daily Share – I Am Meant To Find Spiritual Peace!

December 27, 2012 by 10 Comments

Hi,

I stayed home from work today because I was feeling down about my life and just wanted a pity party in bed I guess. Somehow I landed on your site. I’m in my mid-30′s and feel it’s time for a MAJOR life change. I know there’s a person in me itching to come out but she is stuck with my brain telling her negative thoughts. I am becoming depressed, unhappy, gained weight after pregnancy, just not living to my full potential and being who I can be. Carrying around stinking thinking and disbeliefs is taking its toll. I’ve studied spirituality since my 20′s but not sure what’s stopping me from becoming better. I’ve been through a childhood that consisted of neglect and dysfunctions, a failed marriage, not finding happiness in my job, self-sabotage, and depression bouts. I am hoping to find a way to turn this life around and be the person I am meant to be and find spiritual peace to make a connection with a higher power and faith. I hope it was meant for me to find this website as a way to start my spiritual and self-transformation journey.

A TDL Reader

  • Roxy Roxanne

    Hi,
    I think we land on things when we need them.
    I can relate to how your feeling in so many ways.
    I feel like there are so many areas I want to improve on, I get overwhelmed sometimes by all the spirituality information I subject myself too. What Ive realised is that I need to take baby steps, nothing dramatic is going to happen over night without a little effort and a lot of praying. The chose to focus on my body and health first, because I know i feel great when im looking after myself. Its the feeling great that you need to get more of. The more good feelings you have the more good that takes place i.e. the right people come into your life, good things happen etc.
    I just started walking a bit everyday, i didn’t aim too high. I started asking myself, am I really hungry?, when i used to eat for no reason. I used to get into a trance when I ate, because i was so lonely, i thought by eating id feel better, but i never did. I always felt so disgusted with myself, each and every time. Id look in the mirror with absolute disgust and refuse to go anyway in public, because i hated how i looked. (I used to be super thin and fit).
    I was so hard on myself. How could I expect anyone to love me for who I was when I felt so disgusted. I’m not 100% on the right path yet, but ive started seeing improvements bit by bit. I’m becoming aware of the dialogue in my head. Its not always positive, but im working on it. You need to take time out for yourself, to do things that make you happy, no matter how big or small they might be. Once you change your thoughts and feelings, you’ll notice the people around you will shift, your environment may shift also. I used to have so many issues with other people, until i realised i was attracting all these events and issues to myself. My behavior and lack of love was making things worse. Get into a support group for mums, you’ll find your not the only one who feels this way, you might be able to help someone else who is feeling a lot worse, just by being there for them.
    Hope you feel better soon xx

  • Lipsitz_jill

    Trust me when I tell you that you can connect with a higher power.  I did it very late in life because I am 66 years of age.  I, too, had a somewhat difficult childhood because of my Mother dying when I was 2, my brother 5, and my sister 8.  We did, however have a fabulous Father.  I have bouts of depressesion also.  My husband is now dealing with Cancer and I have become very fearful of things to come.  I started to just sit and be very still and do what I call meditating in my own way.  When I allow myself silence and stillness I feel a major connection with my higher power.  I now work very hard to stay in the present and not project what MIGHT be.  I also realize that all of that is out of my control.  I prayed for peace and my prayers along with my trying to be present and positive did in fact give me the peace that I need.  Friends of mine who aren’t even aware of my spirituality can see a difference in me.  Hang in there and forget the past and stay in the present.  Everynight before I go to sleep I think of any small good thing that happened to me that day.  Every morning when I awake I say thank you and ask my higher power to make me the best that I can become. 

  • AC

    My heart goes out to you.  I, too, have been to all those dark places you write about.  I, too, have found relief in spirituality and becoming more conscious.  What has been most helpful to me is realizing that in every moment of our waking hours, we make a choice – consciously or unconsciously – as to how we will experience each moment.  For me, it has turned out largely to be a matter of the attitude I choose to take.  This may sound simplistic or unsympathetic, but I have been where you are (for years), and I don’t say these things lightly.

    I’ve learned to re-orient my thoughts.  It is literally about becoming conscious of the negativity and rejecting it, knowing that it leads you nowhere good.  A daily practice of gratitudes and affirmations, particularly in the area of self-love, is a good place to start.  Establishing a love and respect for yourself is the very first step in being able to shine your light out to the world.  It sounds cliche, but we cannot love others until we sincerely love ourselves.  Become aware of the voice in your head that berates or criticizes you, know that it is totally an illusion, and tell it to go away!  What is real is that you are love at the very heart of yourself and every bit as deserving of joy and peace in your life as every other human being.  Michael Singer’s “The Untethered Soul,” is a great place to start on this.

    You have experienced hardship in life.  Your work is to heal yourself from the wounds of the past (they are real, but they are in the past), and get yourself into the present.  Once you release all that weight, the beautiful spirit underneath can get out and shine.  You know, instinctively, that it’s there.  I have found all of the works of Caroline Myss to be incredibly helpful and inspiring for healing and finding the spirit within you.

    We all have hard times.  As I look around, I sometimes feel that depression might be one of the hardest experiences in life.  But then I remember that I don’t have a life-threatening illness, and I have many things in my life to be grateful for.  Make a choice to start every day focusing your attention on all that is good, even if you have to work hard to find it.  Then ask God (or the Universe or whatever you call that Divine presence) to show you the way.  Surrender, then sit quietly and listen for your inner guidance.  The beautiful spirit within you is dying to get out.  I know you will dig deep and make a choice to clear a path and let your spirit shine!

    • jlov2ski

       AC,
      I got chills as I read your post. I have been going through a lot lately and purchased a book… a great book to say the least! It has been a blessing for me.
      As I read your post you referred to that book “The Untethered Soul” by Michael Singer…. wow. it made me smile, the right book at the right time found me and you just verified it for me.
      Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
      I hope the person that you responded to finds that book, it will help.

  • Anthony Jacksoneds

    You are on te right path and you have found the right place! I am new to TDL but I make it a place to stop by everyday to get charged and focused on my journey. At some point in time we all feel the way that you are feeling, but I encourage you to trust your instinct. Find time to be alone. Remember that you are the best you on any given day and relax, it’s o.k.

  • Cynthia

    Sometimes I stay home from work to collect and sort my thoughts and feelings, and to just RECUPERATE. Please remember, that whatever it is, whatever you need to change, you CAN. Take it one step at a time. :)

  • SueB

    I have found that you have to try lots of different things to find what works for you.  Read and learn everything you can about spirituality and try lots of techniques.  Then be honest with yourself about which things work for you and which ones are less effective.  Design a spiritual program including what works for you, whether it is certain healthy foods you love, meditation, yoga, reading spiritual literature, time in nature, etc.

  • anoniemm

     
    I met this spell through a friends description and he told me that he help him to get his wife back when another man took her from him and then i decided to try him out and i discover that he is the best and he is very powerful and just yesterday my husband whom i thought will never come back to me came and said to me that he was sorry for leaving me. i now so hppy that my desire have been fulfilled. thank to the priest of the wiseindividualspell@gmail.com he is so powerful.

  • Jen

    I am where you are at too. I’ve been seeing a therapist for the last few months for the same exact feelings. She’s teaching me open-mindedness, self-awareness and really feeling emotion – good and bad. I’m slowly seeing changes, but it isn’t easy. It’s nice to know I’m not alone. She reccomended I read a book called Broken Open by Elizabeth Lesser. I read the preview off of amazon, and it looks like it addresses our problems. Good luck friend, you’re not alone in this either.

  • cute_batet

    Hi!

    I know this is a really tough situation for you especially experiencing that negative battle that’s going on in your mind.  I’m glad you are aware that those thinking that goes in your brain are negative ones.  Being aware of those negative stuff and wanting to get rid of them are your first step to creating a more healthy mind. 
      
    When you wake up each morning feeling so blue, just remember to breathe.  When it seems that the world is falling apart, just remember to breathe in hope and breathe out all the negativity.  We all get to choose everything we want in life including our happiness.  Just remember that everything happens for a reason.  We may not understand it at first but keep the faith and trust that there is a higher source looking out for you.  :O)