Last February my boyfriend then took a trip to the middle east for a friends wedding. I didn’t get to attend due to school/work. A few days later
he skyped me to tell me he had cheated on me with an old high school crush, who was a facebook friend. They had slept together in Jerusalem during my birthday week. According to him, he had fallen in love with her, and they started a relationship till now 8 months later and going strong. At the time I was in our home, and an old date texted me, so I decided to go out on a date with him after the cheating news of my three year relationship had looked to be the ending. I slept with this Persian guy and we kept sleeping together till my ex-boyfriend returned from Israel 10
days later. I moved out on my own, I kept seeing the new guy for the next 6 months. I later realized that I fell in love . I couldn’t stop thinking about him, I will shop for him, I wanted his company, affection, time, everything I was starting to miss in a relationship. The problem was that he didn’t return anything. He will only want to see me after 9 pm for sex, he never asked me out to dinner or wanted to be seen in public.
I felt rejected and hurt. I stopped seeing him for a month and he wouldn’t stop texting me and calling me telling me he will change and he will treat me better, but he doesn’t want to go further. This was on and off for the next 7 months . I recently gave in and saw him one last time for sex at 9 pm as always. I cant sleep, I cant function right, but every time I think of how great the intimacy is and the connection feels right. I feel depressed it’s been a week no text from either side, and I am hurting waking up with nightmares and anxiety from thoughts of my break up and this rejection. HELP!
A TDL Reader