2013 is coming to an end and it was full of many pivotal moments. The biggest was losing a tremendous amount of money due to choices in the stock market. Enough at 45 I am starting all over to get my financial footing, this was not the first time that this happened. I AM not going to be placing what money I have left at risk any longer and I do not have much. There is also debt to pay off which I am focusing on every day to minimize. I am making strides on this. I am not proud of my financial situation considering I have been making a very good living since I was 25. By now I could have had financial freedom and I am living on a budget to take care of my primary responsibilities. I still have a well paying job which I am thankful for, yet it is not what I want to continue to do for 20 more years.
I have a great deal of faith and this area of finance really tests it.
Being a single man, this shakes my confidence that a woman would not want to entertain being in a relationship with me as I am in a place of financial recovery. This is keeping me away from being free to date and I still carry a big dream of be a loving husband and father. I pray every day that this will happen and for now I am taking care of me. This has been in my space about self-doubt for quite a long time so I am forgiving myself for the financial challenges I put myself through.
I am writing this as I am tired of thinking about it. It’s very painful to go through this. I am not waiting for 2014 for my freedom to begin, I may have less money now but I have more awareness of what not to do going forward.
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