I am a positive, glass half full kind of person. My default is happy. There isn’t much I don’t appreciate and enjoy. But it is starting to feel like life is trying to beat me down. In my 30 years as an adult I have lost 4 jobs. I am a very good worker, never get a bad performance review, never get written up, always get promoted. It is always because of a company acquisition or company losing money or something that has nothing to do with me. I have even lost 2 places to live because the owners of the properties decided to sell.
I take these things in stride and look at them as opportunities, but my last job was my dream job. Working for a non-profit in a field I am passionate about, I thought this is why I lost those other jobs, so I could end up here. Then funding dried up and I was out. I felt like I had been dumped by the love of my life. I was absolutely crushed. It has been almost 2 years and I still shed tears over it. The job I have now is soul-sucking.
It is getting harder and harder to be optimistic. I am approaching 50 and feel as though I, yet again, have to start over. I have friends who have never lost a job. Why does it feel like my life can never be stable? Why are things always being ripped out from under me? I know everything happens for a reason. Things happen for you not to you. Blah, blah, blah. I have had enough. I can’t live my best life when I am pushed into survival mode every few years.
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