Daily Share – Releasing Anger And Embracing My Purpose!

I have an intense connection to the earth and animals. It’s so strong that when I read the book Eating Animals (which I would highly recommend to anyone wanting to know the truth about where your food comes from), each time the slaughtering of an animal was discussed, I would feel horrible pain in whatever part of my body the animal was. This connection usually results in my crying each time I see an animal dead on the side of the road, read a story or see a video about something horrible a human has done to an animal and on particularly bad days, I have been known to cry when I see a living animal by itself because I don’t want it to be lonely. As I type this, I am fully aware that it sounds incredibly crazy and to most people, ridiculous. I’ve tried to fight it. I’ve gone through periods where I wouldn’t allow myself to watch videos released by PETA or documentaries such as Earthlings, but then I felt even worse because I felt like I wasn’t doing my part in understanding what was truly being done to all those I love so deeply.

I’m sure by now; it goes without saying that I have felt more at ease around animals than I ever have around humans. I remember sitting by myself at lunch in elementary school listening to the other kids talk about things that I couldn’t relate to and just feeling like some kind of weird alien. I found solace in the connection I felt with animals. They listened without judgment, which helped me not judge myself so much. I could feel how in sync they were with the earth and I knew deep inside that if humans had the same connection, it wouldn’t be so easy for us to be so disrespectful to this amazing planet we are allowed to inhabit. I now realize looking back, my joy of being barefoot all the time was because it allowed me to feel the earth’s energy as most animals do every day. My passion for protecting them grew as I got older, as is my energetic connection to them. The feelings I described above didn’t start until I became totally vegan 6 years ago and it was about the same time that my anger towards humans for doing what they were doing every day to animals began. This anger has, at times blown up into rage and hatred, which really creates issues for me. Obviously, I’m human, so I know when I feel this anger towards humanity, my soul feels it too and it certainly isn’t healthy. Self-love and love for others, human or animal, is something I know to be incredibly important, which is why I am so grateful for The Daily Love, but I can’t seem to totally release the negative feelings I have. I know my calling in life is to do whatever I can to be the voice for those that can’t be heard. I want to do something magnificent, such as making a documentary and up until a year ago I was living in Los Angeles, which is the place to be to do that. For financial reasons, I had to move back to Ohio and at first really struggled because I thought I had lost the ability to make a difference, but I am now enjoying the small steps toward the bigger goal, whether it’s volunteering at local shelters or spending time with Hugo, my cat I found nearly starved to death on the street a few months ago. I guess I’m writing this because I need to know that I can learn to release the anger I have and also to know that it’s just as important to be of service to animals as it is to be of service to humans. I guess really it’s my ego needing validation that my soul’s purpose here is actually important, if that makes sense.

A TDL Reader

  • I get you.  I feel a strong connection to animals and nature too.  I volunteer at my local animal shelter and go weekly to walk dogs for hours.  Anytime I pass a dead animal on the road, I say a prayer for them.  Sometimes I, too, cry.  I don’t watch programs about animal abuse b/c I KNOW it exists, so I don’t need to see it.  It would only tear me up inside.  It also angers me to see people mistreat animals and the environment so much.  I don’t get it.  I’ve struggled greatly with this, and still do at times.  Right now I’m working on accepting that everyone has their own path.  There are meat-eaters and hunters among us.  That’s THEIR path, as much as I DO NOT understand it.  I trust that the Universe knows what it’s doing and everything is for a reason.  That’s the only thing that keeps me sane.  All any of us can do is what WE can do.  I recycle everything I possibly can.  I’ve been known to take recyclables OUT of trash cans, take them home, and recycle them.  I pick up stuff on the streets all the time.  I’m conscientious of what I eat and where it comes from.  I do what I can with what I have right now.  That’s all any of us can do. 

  • Jessica

    A documentary sounds like a nice plan. I at times revolt in anger too at their atrocities we as humans commit to others and to animals and really appreciate what a lot of organizations and individuals do to educate us and counteract these actions. Recently, with the issue on the milk bill where prices would double to what was being charged back in 1949 when milking was not industrialized, but done by hand, I couldn’t help but notice the lack of education that people have about where their food comes from and what effects it has in your body. One particular lady was interviewed by the local news team and she commented what a tragedy this would be, if milk prices doubled, because she has two teenagers at home, and they need milk to grow. I’m not exactly sure on the statistics but I believe somewhere between 80-90% of Americans at lactose intolerant, so where dies this belief come from? It comes from all the money milk campaigns have flushed through our children’s education system, free school materials if you serve milk in the cafeteria, etc. So, while the vegan movement is spreading, it will take sometime to fully imbed the appropriate education into our society, instead of imposing strict consumerism upon them. Release your anger and focus on spreading the news, we need more documentaries and education on the matter. Thank you for a beautiful post!

  • Tasha

    I can completely empathize with your feelings! I too read Eating Animals two years ago, and have not been the same since. I am currently trying to become Vegan, but am struggling with it. Animals are God’s gifts to us and it’s horrible and sad that they are treated so terribly.

    Please know that becoming Vegan and by getting the word out, you are doing a HUGE part already. By volunteering and working with animals and by wanting to create this documentary, you are doing what is needed and is important. Visualize receiving the financial backing you need in order to make this documentary and ask the Universe to help you bring it into fruition. Then, let go and allow the Universe to work on your behalf. It will happen!

    You are so crticially important to the world and Universe, and as a fellow animal lover, THANK YOU for all you do. Remember, we must be the change we want to see in the world. And you are already making a change. Don’t doubt that.

    Thank you for being a part of this Universe. 🙂

  • Sullivane7

    Wow. Reading this piece and the comments, I feel I’ve met my tribe in a deep way. I have struggled with the hypocrisy I feel about being a meat eater my whole life, and I have to honestly say, the only way I can do it is denial, and I am ripping the veil of that denial off day by day, because I know the only way I can feel good about myself spiritually is to eventually be vegan. I struggle because I have been so brainwashed to believe that I need meat to feel as if I’ve had a decent meal or to not feel hungry. I too, feel a deep affinity for animals and have since I was a child and the almost feral tomcat who lived down the street, who had one eye from a car accident, used to come and hang on our kitchen screen in the summer to get me in the mornings and my mother said I would tell him to wait until I was done with breakfast, and that I would go out and play with him. There were not other children in the neighborhood and the children I did know were always mean, so I would wander the neighborhood and befriend the neighbor’s pets because we did not get a dog until I was 12 and it was only because I had begged and begged so many years that my parents finally gave in. My mother said that I would take Tigger, the tom cat of my story, dress him up, and put him in my baby stroller and take him around the neighborhood, and that he would only allow me to do it. I have always felt like animals communicate to us constantly, you just have to pay attention to their body language, because obviously they don’t talk. I love animals on a soul deep level. My cat and my dog are my true family. So this post really means a lot to me, and you are inspiring to me to really take responsibility and do what I know in my heart is right. Thank you.

  • Oopsiedayz

    Your souls purpose is always important. Don’t let people who can’t identify with your purpose tell you otherwise.

  • kathleen

    For so many years I’ve been told I’m crazy for the way I talk, treat & commune with the four legged creatures in my life. Reading this & the comments has put a smile on my face, I’m not crazy or even the only one who believes our furry friends deserve to be treated with kindness & respect. I have a number of serious health issues for which I now have a service dog Rizzo. I tell people she is my guardian angel in a puppy suit, to which she adoringly smiles at me & wags her tail. Walking has become my therapy, we are now walking 30-35 miles a week. Thank you so much for this community, I finally feel I am amongst like minded souls!

  • Claudia

    Happy to read your article as I feel the same way about animals and I now know I am not alone in my feelings.  Thank you & love & peace   ~  claudia

  • I have my own hot topic that I’m dealing with, different from yours, but giving me the same problems. The main thing I’ve discovered is that before I can do something about it, and make a difference, I need to do whatever it takes to calm down and accept every aspect of the situation for what it is. Once I’ve done that, I can come back to the situation in a more mature and calm way. This is important because I know if I go around yelling and getting upset about my topic, no one will listen to me. I have to be at peace and acknowledge the whole reality behind the matter enough to understand all sides, such that I can truly find a gentle way to lead people down my own thought process, such that they really get it and they won’t feel the need to resist, defend themselves or insult me and laugh me off. In fact, that is all part of why I started writing a blog… The Journey To Learn Acceptance. I knew I was way too judgmental and too angry, and that it was harming me, and wasn’t helping me get what I wanted out of life, and keeping me from being the kind of person I knew I wanted to/should be. It was affecting more areas of my life than I originally knew. Don’t give up on your passions or strongly held values – just fine-tune your approach, and I think acceptance, at least for me, is the first step in that. Just a thought. Good luck to you!

    Much love,

  • I just came back and read all the other comments that people left.  I want to say, since a few of you commented about thinking about going vegan, or starting to, that it’s not as hard as you might think.  And don’t think of it as an all or nothing venture.  I think a lot of people think, “Oh, I could never be vegan,” b/c they have one or 2 non-vegan things they really love that they don’t want to give up.  Even if you just stop eating meat, but still consume dairy, it’s THAT much more that helps the animals.  Whatever you do helps.  I went 100% vegan about 3 years ago.  I was very strict about it for about 2 1/2 of those years.  I read labels ALL THE TIME.  I made the decision to be vegan b/c ONE, I love animals and didn’t want to participate in the cruelty they suffer in the meat AND dairy industries.  And TWO, it’s actually healthier (read “The China Study” by T. Colin Campbell if you’re interested in learning about the health implications of eating animal products…VERY enlightening!). 

    Anyway, in the past 6 months or so I’ve lightened up a little.  I’d say I’m 90-95% vegan now.  Where I wouldn’t before, if I want a cookie that’s made with eggs and/or dairy, I now eat it.  I also eat eggs from time to time.  In my opinion, the MOST important thing is to consider where your food is coming FROM.  Factory farms are AWFUL AWFUL places.  Animals are SEVERELY mistreated.  This goes for animals who are raised for their meat as well as dairy cows and chickens used for eggs.  So now if I DO buy eggs, I buy ONLY from a guy at my local farmer’s market who raises them himself, with no antibiotics or hormones, and lets them live outside, eating organic, natural feed.  I still don’t drink milk, b/c I actually prefer almond milk.  It’s not as heavy and tastes great.  Every now and then I’ll let myself have cheese, or something with cheese, b/c that was the #1 thing I loved before I went vegan.  But they DO make some good vegan cheeses now from soybeans, rice, and nuts.  I regularly buy a vegan cream cheese that is amazing!!! 

    So, I didn’t mean to get on a soapbox about this, I just am passionate about the treatment of animals in the food industry.  And I like to encourage people if you care about animals AT ALL, to at least THINK about where your food comes from.  Buy at farmer’s markets whenever possible.  Buy organic.  Even if you’re not 100% vegan, EVERY choice you make with what you eat makes a difference.  Maybe you used to eat meat for dinner every night, but if you can drop down to just a couple nights a week, THAT will make a difference to those cows/pigs/chickens. 

    A website I went to a LOT when I first went vegan is http://www.thekindlife.com.  I recommend checking it out if you’re interested.  It’s nice to be around (even on the internet) like-minded people, especially in the issue of animal treatment.  🙂 


  • Becks Tron

    What a great topic! I can definately relate to your story, I am a huge animal lover and have recently started becoming vegetarian.I also hated wearing shoes as a kid and loved walking barefoot, though I never saw the connection until you mentioned it!  I have often wondered if the being of service concept can be applied equally towards animals/ the environment, as it can to people. I believe it can, as I feel much more empathy and calling to help heal the environment and animals.
    My only advice would be to try to find a way to transform the anger you feel at injustices and mistreatment of animals, into something more empowering.  How can we use the anger and the sadness that seems overwhelming at times and transform it into something that can be of service? It’s something I need to work on as well.
    Much love, the world needs people like us

  • Madeline

    Have you read Doreen Virtue’s “Realms of the Earth Angels”? Based on your post, you are TOTALLY an incarnated fairy. Reading this book might bring about healing to you and make you feel like your sensitivity is a blessing and you are not alone. I also wanted to add that the “anger” you are experiencing will likely go away when you channel your passion into effective action steps. The anger you feel towards others sounds like it’s a reflection of your own disappointment with yourself for not doing anything about it (yet). Definitely do the documentary! Earth and animals need you and you have a very very special gift. Thank you for sharing and all the best to you!