I am still trying to get over I bad break up. I went to go visit my now ex-boyfriend after talking and texting for about a year. We live very far from each other and I took a plane to him in April and spent nine days with him. I was so in love with him, I still do love him.
We talked about everything, even getting married and having children. He even asked me to move in with him, and he kept telling me that he couldn’t see himself without me. But the day that I got home from seeing him he stopped answering my calls and texts. I was worried that maybe something happened to him, so I sent one more text just making sure that he was okay. He sent a message back saying that he had a lot on his mind, and that he was going through a period of self-isolation.
He told me that he wasn’t talking to anyone and that it wasn’t just me.
However, three days later I got a text from him saying that he wasn’t ready to be in a relationship, he couldn’t be in a long distance relationship, and that he was sorry.
All the promises that he made to me were broken in that single text, and my heart shattered along with them. He hasn’t spoken to me since and I can’t fight the feeling that I feel stupid. I thought everything was okay, and when I left him in the airport told he told that he loved me, and that he would miss me.
Now I feel like it was all a lie, and I had to have done something wrong. Even though he hurt me, I still want him back, but that is never going to happen.
I know that people say that there are other pebbles on the beach, but I doesn’t seem like any of those pebbles are meant for me…
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