Daily Share – What Do You Do When You’re Stressed?

TDL_FB-iconHi TDL,

First of all-great and inspiring website – thank you!

I never do this kind of thing.. the sharing what I am really going though thing. Maybe because I am ashamed of having these issues…like it makes me a lesser person. My whole life I felt stuck in this floaty place between what I acted like and what I felt like… I was always extremely depressed and anxious and felt overwhelmingly scared and ashamed and had a very profound lack of sense of self. I always tried my best to make sure no one saw me this way. However, despite my best efforts I wasn’t able to be the person I wanted to be in this state.

As I got older I learned how to label these “conditions” which gave me some distance from them but I used to and probably still have the mindset of desperately looking for something to fix me and not knowing what. Anyways, after some time in therapy and being put on medication I got a lot of perspective and kind of “out of the gutter.” After experiencing unpleasant side effects of medication and just a general wanting and motivation to feel better on my own I began to go off them.

I decided to use exercise, eating healthy and spiritual inspiration as a more natural means of healing. I continue to diligently do all of these to the best of my ability however I am starting to feel that without medication I have a toxic mind. Perhaps it is the neural pathways or whatever that are ingrained from the way I grew up but with all my hope and willpower and ideas my mind cant seem to stay in any sort of positive state and the moment I am not using all my focus and do anything really that requires focus outside thinking positive thoughts I am flooded with the instinctive heavy depression/anxiety state that my mind has always been in.

I should also add I guess that I found myself in a nice little debt hole and without a job but with a previously inspired decision to not jump into a job that is limiting after leaving the last one.. so I try to focus on self healing and moving forward and upward yet still have alot of outside stressors and anxiety inducers that are financially related. It’s ending up being like going up a down escalator and ending up in square one … Anyway I hope this makes sense. I dont know that Ive ever really shared this in this kind of way I guess for fear of souding borderline insane or ridiculous…but here it is TDL. I wish I could say something more positive and inspirational.. Hopefully one day soon! Wishing all the best to everyone here and hope this isn’t too much of a downer to read.

A TDL Reader

  • Mimi

    Thank you for sharing your experiences. That alone is a major step. To be vulnerable and make better choices for yourself while picking up the pieces of your life is amazing. Your voice is of service to many that feel the same but are afraid to speak. Believe me we are all there at some time of our life. Be gentle and kind to yourself as you navigate the changes in your life. Namaste

  • Liz

    Try to find a way to accept where u are. Really let go and allow the feeling to engulf you. We must trust something bigger than ourselves! Know as I write this I sit with you. Millions of people right know feel the same way. It’s ok to feel this way. We were never taught to sit with our emotions. Just be one with the feeling. Stillness speaks.

  • mimika

    I know how you feel. I have felt this way before also, not quite in the same way, but have been in similar situations. I feel like it has been a personal choice of mine to focus on what I want while making my mental state a more positive one. I think it takes work and sacrifice, though. I may chose to forgive someone, for example (or to forgive myself!), even though I may not feel like doing so initially. I think asking for help is always a good thing. Asking someone you know and trust to have a talk about your worries might be able to bring a sense of peace-of-mind. Also, sometimes, one needs to work through something with others, like paying bills, or getting financial advice, even though it seems as though it can be done independently. It has taken me work and sacrifice to decide and take steps toward what I want for my life…if this is any indication to how others’ experiences are, then I am sure it is not easy to find a stronger sense of self, but I believe it can be done with faith and perseverance. I don’t know if this will help at all, but best wishes regardless! 🙂

  • Ed

    I’m so glad you shared where you’re at. it’s welcome here all of it. I know that sharing my story adds new perspectives on me and open doors to truth about who I really am. yesterday and today I committed myself to work from a Love space, receiving it and sharing it, from work tasks, people and with myself I remind myself to “approach it or me with love” I send you a hug for comfort and Love to bring you peace and hope. btw. In your share I see a lot of love, for you and for others. Thank you.

  • Sue

    I too believe that just being with your emotions is a good exercise. However, for some that may not be enough. In some cases, there are underlying medical reasons that require meds and therapy. If anxiety and depression are persistent you should talk to your doctor. Sometimes the most spiritual thing is telling others you need support. That support comes in all different forms. Our needs, our stories and our biology are all unique and therefore require unique approaches as we journey on the path. I send you peace and love. Xo