Hello my Daily Lovers! If you were wondering where my blog was last week, it was brewing in my brain for today’s blog. I will be blogging every other Thursday for The Daily Love, and moving forward you can find my weekly blogs on my website. I LOVE today, because it’s Thursday and I’m excited to get uber real with you.
In my blog, “I Have Fears Too – Just Like You!” I talked about my biggest fear imaginable. Some would think it would be heights (especially since I fell 14 feet on my head onto concrete when I was 17), but the biggest fear I shared with you is: the end result of completing my book. To go deeper, the honest-to-gosh fear is that it wouldn’t get the feedback or support I was hoping for.
After writing that blog, I really got to see how the fear itself was not serving me. I was focusing my energy on something that wasn’t even real! It hadn’t even happened yet, and it’s the imagined stuff that feeds our fears. Stress and fear are emotions that cannot exist when we are being present, or when LOVE is our main focus. I took a look at that and decided to move forward with writing my book and that it would be perfect upon completion. Why? Because my purpose is to inspire as many people as possible to fall in love with themselves every single day.
When we are connected to our WHY, the HOW and WHAT figure themselves out.
I declared that my book, Love All That Is You, would be completed by 5/7 (because 57 is my favorite number), and I continued the development of the book I theoretically put on the shelf last year. I was attached to the release date and decided that, no matter what, it would be finished by then. I had already completed a lot of it and I decided that it wouldn’t take long to make it the masterpiece I knew it could be.
As I got into the flow of my written thoughts and truths, I realized that what I had already written was good – but it was lacking some latitude. The depth just wasn’t there. It was clear to my eyes, from a brand new perspective, that I was holding back. I was talking about a lot of great concepts and I could tell the content would make an impact on people, but I saw that I wasn’t being purposeful. Even if my existing words would change the lives of many people, I really got to see that my biggest purpose lives within a truth I hadn’t shared yet. With anyone.
It was during a relationships workshop I went to with Brad that I got to confront some experiences in my past. I discovered that it would serve me (and anyone else who read my book) if I went deep into those experiences. I realized that letting go of the anger, guilt and shame of my past would be an invitation for my Readers to do the same with wasted energy that was holding them back. When we focus on what no longer exists, we cannot value the present moment. When we aren’t present, we aren’t allowing ourselves to grow or move forward.
Being in that space would contradict everything I was saying in my book. I was not interested in being a hypocrite.
I accepted the fact that my past experiences happened FOR me, not TO me. They all happened for a reason: so I could be a messenger from The Uni-verse to show people how to FULLY love themselves; not just saying it, but truly feeling it on the molecular level. When you FEEL love for yourself on the molecular level, you are experiencing unconditional LOVE and that is the kind of love that we are born with.
I thought, “Geez, I really have a lot to say and there is no realistic way I can complete this book – while being in my integrity – by the 7th of May…” I felt sick to my stomach. My Ego stepped up and said this to me: “But you declared it to your fans that you’d have it done by then. If you can’t be your word, how can anyone take you seriously? Just finish it and release it NO MATTER WHAT!”
Wow. Our Egos really like to avoid depth and be concerned about what people think about us. The Ego also likes to be attached to the way things are “supposed to look.” I retaliated with this: “You know what, Ego? I have a bigger fish to fry. Being honest with my Readers is my responsibility. The Uni-verse doesn’t need any more leaders standing on a mountain top while shouting out vague instructions on how to get there. I wanna climb the mountain WITH my Readers. I want them to know I’m not invincible. I’m not attached to May 7th. I’m committed to authentic excellence.”
Having said all of that, I will keep you all posted on the release of my book. You can stay connected with me on my fan page on Facebook for daily updates! I love being connected and hearing about what comes up for you when you read my blogs. How does your Ego want you to sell out your authentic Self? How do you tell your Ego that you aren’t interested in what it has to say? Let me know!
Love all that is you,
Jenna Phillips is a Total Wellness Philosopher, Certified Holistic Lifestyle Coach, AFAA Certified Personal Trainer & the founder of her lifestyle brand I’m On A Mission. Follow her on Twitter and be inspired.