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Let Go And You Will ‘See’ Your Answer!

Kathleen ChelquistHow often has someone (who means well) advised you to…”LET GO?” Yeah, yeah…whatever! May be your first thoughts, and F…you, comes
shortly thereafter. Your grip is so tight, you wouldn’t know how to loosen one pinky, much less both hands.

I get it.

And although the two words are oh-so-very-trite, they are the ONLY way to access your divine wisdom. Your answer.

Please indulge me, as I let you in on one of my memorable and extraordinary experiences of LETTING GO…

In 1994, I was diagnosed with eye cancer (melanoma) in the choroid of my left eye, leaving me with peripheral vision (only). I was naive, fresh out of college, and 24-years-old. Throughout the following 17 years, I had two recurrences and treated the tumors with laser and radiation. But (to even the doctor’s disbelief), I was diagnosed with it AGAIN at the age of 41. This time, in a completely different location of my eye (2 in 10,000 cases). The opthamologist had NO advice at all. He hesitantly said, “Well, let us know if you are willing to REMOVE your eye, OR we can RADIATE it AGAIN and ‘try’ to save it.” Click (It was left on my voicemail).

My initial reaction was to radiate…until I spoke with my loved ones, who feared for my life. I bought into “their” common sense, specious argument, and blocked myself from the answer.

Until…I LET GO.

One early and foggy morning, I decided to take a long walk along the shore of a well known tourist destination and my hometown of Pismo Beach. I was determined to breathe, relax, and listen (prerequisites for “letting go”). About half way, I sat on top of a semi-flat boulder; taking in
the timeless waves of creation, unfettered by lack of time or other people’s opinion.

Praying. Listening…

No answer.

And yet, I managed to calm my palpable mind chatter.

As I walked back to my car, despite no resolution, I was reminded…

Are you Here Kathleen? It’s Me, The Uni-verse.

I want you to close your eyes and scroll your iPod. You will know when to stop. Play the song blindly, and remember to not only LISTEN, but
HEAR the message.

For the record, I don’t have many “Thank You” songs on my playlist, but I knew Fleetwood Mac, James Taylor, and my other favorites were from the “Spirit of Love,” too-so what the heck. I proceeded to open my vision and close my eyes, as I scrolled down the plethora of artists on my iPod screen.

Within 30 seconds, my instinct instructed me to: pause, open my baby greens, and take a sneak peak at my destiny…

The song was…”Daniel” by Elton John.

I doubted the title immediately: hmmmm…is this really Love’s answer, or do I need to do this again? I can give “The Creator” a little lag time,
right? Fortunately, I chose to doubt my doubt, trust, and listen to every word. Over and over again, I played the song. Until I was willing to
not only listen, but HEAR the message.

Daniel my brother,
You are older than me,
Do you still feel the pain,
Of the scars that won’t heal?
YOUR EYES HAVE DIED,
but YOU SEE MORE THAN I,
Daniel you’re a star in the face of the sky.

I tasted my tears with gratitude and relief; peace ran through my veins, and I remembered that I was whole.

So the question begs: did I have my answer? No. Answers often do not come in the way we think they ought to, and the “man of many glasses” sings it loud and clear. It wasn’t about whether I chose to radiate or remove my eye. Why? Because by changing parts of my robotic-like- programming, I was seeing through different lenses. I was still undecided but created peace regardless.

In the “eye” of the storm, I LET GO!

“The most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched, they must be felt with the heart.” -Hellen Keller.

One week later, I received my answer.

How many times can a man turn his head
And pretend that he doesn’t see?
The answer, my friend, is blowin’ in the wind,
The answer, is blowin’ in the wind.
-Peter Paul and Mary (written by Bob Dylan)

And thus, I chose to radiate my tumor.

This was just 2 years ago, and I am still surrendering and obedient to Love with my main guru–my eye.

Are you struggling for an answer? Let go and remember:

“What you have been looking for all your life has been with you all along.”

(This is a quote I received in the middle of the night; only to suddenly awake and write it down during this challenging, yet wondrous time of my
life.)

With all my heart,

Kathleen

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Kathleen Chelquist is an inspirational blogger. Engage with Kathleen on her blog, her Facebook and follow her on Twitter.

  • Andrea

    Thank you Kathleen for sharing this story with us. I agree, we need to let go, let Love, Surrender to what is, instead of trying to force things to happen, let it happen. Let life flow, give up fear and have faith. Love the quote.

    • Kathleen Chelquist

      Thanks Andrea! We will pull up our divine wisdom when we “let life flow.” So true, indeed. Love, Kathleen

  • http://www.drsweta.com/ Dr. Sweta – the self expressio

    A friend and I were having a conversation about how you can look and look for an answers and then you have a moment like what you experience where there could be no answer in sight and suddenly awareness comes, it goes beyond just getting quiet, it’s about getting out of the way so you can receive the answer that was always there! Thank you for sharing an experience that express something that is hard to explain (especially for those who may have not had an experience of receiving the subtle but life altering messages of the universe)

    • Kathleen Chelquist

      Thanks Dr. Sweta! I loved how you said, “it goes beyond just getting quiet.” That’s it! It’s when we care, but don’t mind in the space of “LETTING GO!” True surrender to the “what is” in the moment; trusting all is well. Much love to you! Kathleen

  • alex

    Really lovely message. Thank you for your honesty. :)

  • Ilonda Hairston-Clayton

    Love it…really need this message today! #gratefulgal

  • Judy Berman

    Hi Kathleen, I have a hard time letting go.. even if things aren’t serving me any longer. I asked my Rabbi for advice one day and he told me a story I would like to share with you.. He has a saying “Let go or be dragged”.. and the saying comes from this story.. In the Phiiippines they have these adorable monkeys that some of the people catch, kill and eat for delicacies.. How they do this is.. they take coconuts and cut a hole in them the size of the monkeys hand and fill it with nuts.. they put them all over the ground. The monkeys want the nuts so bad they reach in the coconut and close there fists with a handful of nuts.. they can’t pull there hand out because there fist is closed and the savages blundgeon them to death and drag them away.. All along to get away they just had to OPEN there hand and let go of the nuts!! Hence the saying “Let go or Be Dragged”.. we all have thing and people that we hang on to.. Letting go is the key as you say to Peace and Serenity. I am working on that as well!!
    I was an Oncology Nurse that was married to a wonderful man(physician) that was faced with terminal cancer, it was my pleasure to be with him for 27 years and 8 days until his passing.
    I wish you well on your journey!!
    xo
    Judy Berman

  • Tanja Erickson

    Dear Kathleen, What a gift you give with your message and story!!!! Letting go certainly can be the hardest choice for me to make sometimes and yet EVERY time I do, I create peace and life presents itself even more beautifully than I could imagine! You are such an inspirational writer! From my heart to yours, Tanja

  • hiba

    Thank you Kathleen for your beautiful message and bravery. It’s so inspiring that you can call this time challenging, yet wondrous!

  • Juliana Nahas

    It takes Huge Faith and Courage to Let Go as you did! Bravo!

  • Mamaste

    And for you to realize this at such a young age…or maybe we all come to this conclusion when we are faced with life’s challenges. Blessings Kathleen, and oh, by the way, those are two of my very favorite songs. xoxo ~S

  • yesi.p

    Thank you! My mind always reacts when I hear LET GO? “How often has someone (who means well) advised you to…”LET GO?” Yeah, yeah…whatever! May be your first thoughts, and F…you.” Letting go is not meant for our mind(ego) it always wants us to struggle and fight the battle of duality. Let go, is meant for our hearts to experience Oneness, no separation from all there is. Healing takes a journey, even if it is hard for me to drop off the DRAMA victim that I am addicted to, for the rush of thinking I am being in control..( a taste of power) that is my mind talking. Really I am powerless and I let go and let God, my highest self be the driver, be calm and wait for the next step. Breath and feel the truth, there is nothing to fear right now in this present moment. There is nothing you need to control, just trust and let love take the flow back to the heart. Blissful will come, it’s always there..I love you Kathleen! You are amazing!

    • Kathleen Chelquist

      I love you.

  • TVJackieM

    I love this. Whenever I let go of something it works out one way or another.

  • http://www.tracymcmicking.com/ Tracy McMicking

    Kathleen your story is an inspiring demonstration of courage. Thanks for sharing and reminding us how powerful it is to let go and trust.

  • Chloe

    It was a great read. What inner strength you have. I have let go of a lot this year, and Jesus, God or the Universe (whatever you choose to call HIM), has taken the wheel. I just show up daily and do my very best FOR THAT day. I work hard, love those in my life, show kindness, and work to better others lives….and the wheel is being driven in a great direction.
    I have been teaching my kids about letting go this week. Trust God. We didn’t have a house we were moving to secured yet, and we have to move Sept. 8th. All my friends were worried, and I told them, God is going to reveal what I am suppose to do. We applied for house this entire month, and we were turned down because of income not being high enough (3 times rent), or because we had a beloved pet. I even walked away from an offer from a friend to co-sign. But, I knew in my heart of hearts LETTING GO and LETTING GOD was the answer.
    Yesterday, we signed a lease, 10 days before we have to move. Everyone loves the house, the landlord is wonderful, and the leasing agent had the same name as my daughter. I qualified on my own, and all is well. LETTING GO feels good because I can’t control anything. I can only show up, work to the best of my ability, and release it. Many people think letting go= just chill and thou shall receive…..but no, no, no….letting go means you release the worry…you still research, you still work and show up, you plan, you sit still for meditation….but you release any attachment to the outcome. You trust that whatever unfolded is God’s will (or the Universe. covering my bases). Thank you for sharing your story of letting go. Much love to you Kathleen.

    • Kathleen Chelquist

      YES!!! Thanks Chloe for sharing.

  • Miha
    • Kathleen Chelquist

      WOW! Thank you so much; I just shared this amazing wisdom on my FB page. It is such an incredible feeling to have lived and breathed every word of his article. To know what he is saying, is the truth. Experiencing this kind of surrender is what keeps me choosing Love. Every moment that I am willing! Thanks again!

      • Miha

        :)

  • Paula Dias

    Your message really spoke to my soul and I will practice letting go and surrendering to the universe for answers everyday, Thank you for sharing your amazing journey

  • Estee

    Such a great experience for you to share, thank you!