Today I woke up on my seventh day of my Blended drink/Juice cleanse. I laid in bed wide awake thinking about what my body would benefit consuming for the day. The thought of blended drinks made my stomach turn and become slightly nauseous — those feelings were definitely enough for me to let go of blending for the day! Talk about the body talking to me! The thought of lemons made me salivate and feel energetic so I knew I needed to add lemons to whatever juice I was going to consume today. By the time I was done with my shower and getting ready to make a morning video for my clients, I excitedly went into the kitchen to make some warm lemon water with basil. I joyfully looked in the fruit bowl to find — bananas and plums. I casually walked over to the fridge and opened up the fruit drawer to find — mangoes, watermelon, and pears. I opened up the drawer where the onions are kept and thought maybe there was a spare lemon or two hiding out there — NOPE. GREAT. So not cool.
Where were the lemons?
Normally this wouldn’t bother me that much — but I am guessing because my schedule was so full and I had no time to get to the store — I slammed the door and said to myself, “Why can’t I be supported even in this little way? Why can’t things ever just be easy?” I noticed my jaw clench and my head start to hurt.
Between you and me, I have no idea where that reaction came from because I thought I truly believed that I was supported! I couldn’t understand my intense reaction, except perhaps, since I am living on juice for 30 days and am a bit more sensitive — maybe parts of my system hadn’t integrated just how much I am truly supported. Maybe this was a chance for it to resonate more deeply. OH!! — Here is an idea! — Maybe the detox is kicking in!
All of the sudden I felt resentment pouring out of my skin — the thoughts that came up were surprising — like — can’t someone just take care of me? Do I have to do everything by myself? Why can’t things be easy?
Welcome to the world of detoxification. Getting rid of the old to make room for the new!! WOOHOOO!!! Fun times ahead!
I made some hot water (wow…hot water…with NO lemon), grumbled and complained outside as I sat by the Koi pond to create intention for the day. I sat there looking at the water as the orange fish glided under my feet. As I breathed and noticed the tension in my body, I started slowly breathing in hopes of helping the tension leave. For goodness sake, it was only a lemon! I sat creating intention for the day. “Please help any cell of my being that doesn’t believe I am truly supported dissolve and make room for me to fully embrace that I AM indeed supported with each every breath that I take.” Maybe I didn’t need lemons today. I took another deep breath and created the intention for the day that “I allow myself to embrace that every moment in my life supports me.”
Later in the afternoon, I went for a quick walk around the neighborhood. When I cleanse I find it very helpful to do some type of movement twice a day. On the concrete street, as I walked in the middle of suburbia catching up with a friend, I noticed how beautiful the sky was. Walking on this beautiful day, with the warmth of the sun kissing my shoulders, and hearing one of my best friends voices — made my Heart expand with intense joy. I took a deep breath and reminded myself of all the beautiful things in my life that I have to be grateful for. As I was looking up in the sky at the clouds, I tripped on something and almost fell off the curb. I looked to the side and there sat one bright yellow, perfectly round lemon. Out of nowhere. No other lemons around. No tree. Nothing. Just a yellow lemon sitting on the concrete strategically placed on the path where I was walking.
I have to tell you — that was one of the coolest moments to date for me when it comes to learning a lesson. Things may not happen in the time we snap our fingers and want them to — but if we just stay focused on the positive, have faith and patience, our needs will always be taken care of in perfect time. Each moment from here to there, is to help purify our Heart and remind us to trust in Life more and more. Life truly does have our back, if we allow ourselves to open up and feel supported.
I picked up the warm lemon, put a huge smile on my face, and walked back to the house to make the best glass of lemon basil water I had ever tasted.
With each and every breath we take, may we know in the deepest place of our Hearts that every moment supports us.
From the bottom of my giggling Heart,
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