Since moving to Santa Barbara a couple of months ago, I am spending a lot of time in nature. I often take my doggie, Pumpkin, hiking and I love to watch her revel at all the scents & sounds of nature. She bounds through brush and hauls up steep rocky stairs, all the while with a big doggie grin on her face and no complaining or whining. Watching her brings me present and warms my heart. I learn so much from her and the thing I notice most is that she enjoys “what is,” no matter what. I know – she is a dog and that’s what dogs do. And I also recognize that if I didn’t have her in my life, I probably wouldn’t be reminded as much as I am of this important lesson.
As someone who has been healing from adrenal exhaustion over the last 6 months, I often struggle with my level of fitness and where I am now, compared to last year after finishing P90X and having a consistent 5-6 day a week workout schedule. I get disenchanted at how challenging it is to do the things I used to do with ease. My body is just not physically capable right now of doing 30 push-ups or 15 assisted pull-ups, yet I know this will take time, patience, diligence and consistent effort. This has all provided a huge lesson for me on listening to my body, being gentler on myself, yet also to keep moving forward in a more knowledgeable and loving way. It really brings me present to “what is.” Something I haven’t been so good at in the past, coming from an athletic background and always feeling the need to do everything “perfectly” regardless of how much damage it did to my body or emotional state. This is a time for me to reset myself and to reconfigure my mindset of how I think things “should” be, and to take a different action…not always easy to do.
I know you may be thinking – how does a nutritional & wellness coach have adrenal burnout? Well, that’s a good question and I am someone who prides myself on how clean I eat and how well I thought I was taking care of my body, but the truth is, I came off of 2-1/2 years of a very stressful time in a relationship as well as building a business all on my own. There were many moments when I let my emotions overtake me and staying in a relationship that wasn’t good for my emotional wellbeing didn’t help. I didn’t listen to the voice inside that told me to leave, or told me to slow down or told me to back off. Yes, we all have lessons to learn and that was mine. I tell you all of this because I do not want to fight for my limitations anymore. I want to fight for what I CAN do now and not beat myself up for what I didn’t do THEN. I want to learn from my limitations and use them as a leverage to go to a deeper place within myself, a deeper knowing where I can make better choices for myself versus doing what I always did in the past which didn’t serve my spiritual growth.
So often we live life in a story of what we think we can or can’t do and often times our egos stand strong in what we CAN’T do…telling us over and over that we can never have this or that, or could never DO this or that; it will often squelch our dreams and continue fighting to keep that story of limitation alive because the truth is, our EGO HATES CHANGE!!! This is one of the ways we sabotage ourselves. And sometimes we don’t even know we are doing it. Our limitations came from something that happened in childhood that has been ingrained in our subconscious for so long, we don’t even see them. The great thing about that is we have the power to change our thought process and stand up for our capabilities, not inabilities. We have the power to accept what is (it may take some work) and to keep doing the things we need to do to grow as spiritual beings having a human experience in this Earth School.
I don’t want my limitations to be the reason I don’t go out and meet new people, start a new program or do something that scares me. I want to move through them, see them for what they are and then take the contrary action. When we take contrary or opposite action of what we have always done, we change. We rewire our brains for a different experience of ourselves and this is something that I am learning along this healing journey. I am learning to listen to that still small voice inside, not the BIG LOUD ONE in my head, which is usually the one that is fighting to keep me small. It’s hard at times to really know which is which, but when I really get quiet and sit with myself, that still small voice is always the one that I hear the loudest.
So I ask, where do you fight for your limitations? Where can you take contrary action in your life and change your story of, “I can’t?” Where can you be gentler on yourself yet stand strong in the knowing that you have the power to change your reality?? We are all here to learn, change, grow and be of service to others, so how can you take the focus off what you can’t do and focus on what you CAN do NOW??
# # #
Melissa is personal chef, wellness coach and nutrition educator. Check out her website here.