I feared my future.
I feared for my dad who was battling Hepatitis C.
I feared of what others said about me.
I feared of failure.
I feared of coming out.
So, yea… I was a fearing hot mess!
I began to fear so much I started to hold myself back from my full potential. Through time I began to realize that in order to truly be happy I would have to learn how to silence this noise.
When our noise begins to overshadow our happiness, it’s time to make a change. A lot of my fear was buried by a deeper reason, and it stemmed from me hiding away my true identity.
I was living a life of someone I was not, and each day the bricks of fear began to build. Sometimes in life our lives will shatter apart, but it’s often a blessing in disguise.
“The thing you fear most has no power. Your fear of it is what has the power. Facing the truth really will set you free.” ~ Oprah
When I came out to my family, I felt as if my world was shattering before my eyes. I began to once again fear what others would think of me. Would I lose friends? Would my family be okay with this secret I have harbored for so long? So many questions… so much noise… but at the core of it all, I began to become free.
As hard as these moments are, I will always be thankful for life’s turmoil’s. When our lives fall apart, it’s the perfect time to pick up the pieces and create the world we dream of. We must do what is best for us in order to live a full life.
There came a point in my life when I realized many of life’s circumstances are out of my control. Thus, going forward I must carry myself in a positive manner and continue to spread love regardless of my fear. I soon stopped fearing about things I used to. People talking bad about me? Eh, not my problem. All I can do is be ME.
Stop fearing and start LIVING. Accept the fact that uncertainty will arise, but try and embrace it as your current chapter. Each moment that arises will only make you stronger, but look at the moment through a positive mindset.
“You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.” ~
It’s of the upmost importance to not get so caught up in fear that we forget to LIVE. When we FEAR, we close ourselves off from LOVE. When we hold onto fear, we remain captive, but when we come from a place of Love, we embrace the situation unfolding.
F.E.A.R.: False Evidence Appearing Real
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Joey Parker is Editor-In-Chief of The Joey Parker Movement and contributing writer for MTV Act. Passionate about ending human trafficking & creating a brighter future.