The Daily Love
A place to Love and be Loved
Having been always the “eternal optimist” I couldn’t understand the source of this growing pessimism. My barometric glass was increasingly looking half empty…all the time! I am cranky, frustrated and, as said in the rooms of recovery, restless, irritable and discontented…most of the time! Who is this alien who’s set up shop in my psyche and who’s given the bastard the free rent? I did, unwittingly giving him a free pass by holding onto the anger of a broken heart and love lost. Wow. Who knew? Its been affecting me processionally and personally. I saw it in my father and said “Boy, I’ll never do that!” Well guess what? I did and I have. The corrosive affects of have been nearly debilitating. Amazing!
Letting go…it’s such a concept for me. I’ve been focusing on a relationship with myself but I’ve been holding onto anger for one person and it has kept me attached to them. I’ve been trying to understand why I can’t let go and full commit to myself, but I see now that the anger and resentment I feel is what is keeping me connected. I read these blogs everyday and find it theraputic and a way to find my way to back to the center and the real issue at hand; the lack of love I feel for myself.
Thank you for your insight today.
I understand on a logical level the importance of holding a high energy vibration which excludes long-held anger, etc……on a feeling level, it is currently still a work in progress. It’s my opinion that awareness becomes the first and foremost tool of progress…..knowing “when” you’re holding anger, etc., is the first important step to letting it go. So I find it useful to sometimes just sit back and observe—see what’s going on “with me”—-ensure I’m releasing negativity and choosing positive energy vibrations…….
Anger does no one any good at all. I had it when I separated at the start of the year. It made me someone I didn’t recognise or like. I put an end to that. I will never say a bad word against another soul ever again in my life whether it it completely true. Say nothing if you have nothing good to say is my new motto. Changed my perspective in life.