I was also lifting weights 6 days a week and doing cardio almost every day to. Until I put my back out.
That was a massive pattern interrupt. And it helped me to create space in my life.
I had a big aha the other day, which was I am worth taking care of. I know that sounds a little crazy, but ever since Daily Love really got some legs, I’ve been so consumed with helping others, that I forgot to take care of me.
When my back went out, I knew it was a wake up call. And the reason why my back went out is because the muscle went into spasm. I had given up my yoga practice for weights only.
I don’t think that life wanted me to slow down – but I do feel that my body was asking for space. When there is enough space in your muscles, they don’t tend to spasm.
I chose to see this as a metaphor for my life. I needed more space. I had built a life where I was only focused on taking care of others, but needed to take care of myself.
I had classic giver’s remorse. And my body was asking for more time for me.
So, with that space, I decided to say no to projects, I went on the Clean Gut Cleanse and decided to really get in touch with what I wanted, rather than what I thought was demanded of me.
The results have been really awesome. What was burnout a couple weeks ago has transmuted into excitement. I feel reenergized and ready to keep going, knowing that I need to take care of myself.
I think one of the reasons we can get so caught up in and addicted to stress is because that we don’t believe we can survive any other way. But I don’t think this is true. I think that as we calm down our system, take ourselves out of “fight or flight” and focus on getting clear, we will see that life takes care of us in bigger and bigger ways.
Making decisions from a place of stress and fear can be good in the moment, but it’s not a very powerful long term strategy. It’s important to get clear and know that our needs can be met as we begin to take care of ourselves.
So, my question for you is this: are you worried that if you took care of yourself you won’t be supported by life?
What if that weren’t true. How would you take care of yourself if life would support you while you did?
In the comments below let me know!
Here’s to creating some space.
Lots of LOVE,
P.S. Take what resonates and leave the rest.