When Sh*t Hits The Fan!

Jordana Jaffe portrait 052112If you’re familiar with my work, you’ve probably heard me say (more than once or twice) that there is always a breakdown before the breakthrough. Every single time in my life that was super kick a$$ started out as crappy as they come.

I came out after six months of dating an amazing man (and realizing that I wanted to keep the amazing part, but just not the man part…) — I met said amazing man at a job I got after being rejected from a position at O Magazine (which at the time was my dream of dream jobs).

live ORGANIZED (business numero uno) was born during two+ months of agoraphobia (don’t know what that is? look it up. It was a party…an indoors party, that is.)

I became vegan after watching Food Inc., Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead, and lots of other plant-loving documentaries, and the only reason I watched so many hours of them was because my back went out for a week. Right after my birthday.

If it weren’t for being rejected from my dream job, suffering from agoraphobia for two+ months, and having my back go out for an entire week following my 29th birthday, I might still be a heterosexual (albeit inauthentic) corporate meat-eating kinda gal.

Now, I’m all for all of you straight corporate carnivore ladies! I love you guys. It’s just not for me. We all have our truths. And for me, my truth involves having a wife, running a business, and overstocking my fridge with fruits and veggies.

And those are all pretty big truths. Love. Career. Health. All born from moments when I was either nearing or hovering very closely over rock bottom.

I remember the day I heard from O Magazine that I wouldn’t be getting my own cubicle. I stayed in bed for the entire day, sulking and lamenting my life, and wondering how oh how I could possibly be happier at any other job in my life.

I remember when I realized that I was agoraphobic. The LAST thing that entered my mind was that a breakthrough was around the corner. At the time, I just wanted to make sure that the breakdown wasn’t going to be life-long. I wasn’t focused on the light at the end of the tunnel here. I wanted reassurance that the tunnel actually ended at some point, light or no light.

I remember when my back went out and I couldn’t easily do work for a week and I felt lonely in my apartment and oh so sorry for myself.

We’ll call those times “woe is me.” And I was woe-ing it big time.

I also remember the day I broke up with my last boyfriend. It was a Saturday in late July 2006 and even though I had tear-streaked cheeks as I rode in the cab uptown from the East Village (breakups are always hard for me, regardless of the circumstance), when I met one of my best friends at a diner uptown, I jumped up, ran to the juke box and blasted, “I’m Coming Out” by Diana Ross. And then I danced in my seat. True Story.

I remember when I realized that organizing was not only going to be a hobby for me, but an actual business, and feeling so clear, empowered, and *happy* for the first time in so long.

And I remember going food shopping for the first time and filling my cart with fresh produce and foods with few ingredients and feeling like I was being my body’s bestest friend ever.

I call these moments, “wow is she” (she, being the Uni-verse, source, your own personal power, whatever or whoever you may believe in). And yes, these moments were certainly wow-filled.

So, dear friends, here’s the moral of these stories:

The sh*t will hit the fan. In fact, maybe it’s hitting your fan right now. So that’s going to happen. Know it. Expect it. Accept it.

And then know this: It’s all good. 

Yes, that’s right. Every little bit of it is good. It might not look very pretty or feel very good today, but I promise and feel so certain, from the depths of my core, that the sh*t is here to serve you in some way.

Think possibilities, opportunities and openings. Consider that all of this sh*t is magical fairy dust in disguise. Because IT IS.



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Jordana Jaffe is the founder of Embarkability, a company that teaches women how to start and grow their own service-based businesses. You can receive Jordana’s free weekly newsletter here. To learn more about Jordana, visit her website, on Facebook, or Twitter. You can connect with her directly here.

  • Loved your article, felt like you explained my life right down to detail working for O and everything hehe !! This is one of those things that reminds you, you need to have that s”t hitting the fan to finally give up and sit down and look at yourself. Running around like a maniac trying to get what you think you want. great timing, one of those mornings that you wake up and ask for direction, and you open your computer and there it is.

  • Kathryn humphrey

    Great article because the sh*t is hitting the fan right now.