Jenna and I – this very moment – are on a plane from Los Angeles to Bali.
It’s literally on the other side of the world! And through the magic of the Internet and having an amazing team, I can publish this blog while totally disconnected from the Internet and flying across the world. So you can read this blog even though I’m out of reach for the next 24 hours.
There are a lot of crazy awesome things that the Internet allows us to do now, and it keeps changing. It keeps getting cooler.
And what’s interesting is that as life keeps getting cooler and cooler, blocks are coming up for me.
I wrote last week about the upper limit problem.
And what’s interesting now is that there’s this part of me that is thinking, “Well, I know the other shoe is going to drop and something will go wrong, because life isn’t supposed to be good.”
And what is so strange is that all my life I’ve yearned to be happy. And for the last decade I’ve really studied the art of happiness and making things happen. I’ve set my intention to make awesome stuff happen.
But, for right now, there’s a big part of me that doesn’t trust that life will be awesome on an ongoing basis. It’s almost as if it’s too good to be true.
A few months ago I was having dinner with Louise Hay and talking about this fear of mine that things are going to crash and burn, and life will take a massive turn for the worse, and specifically that I will never have enough financial well-being to survive, let alone, thrive.
Louise looked me in the eyes and said, “Mastin, you and I both know that will never happen.”
Her words have been so comforting during this time of expansion. It’s not that I’m scared of my Light. It’s not that I am sabotaging myself. It’s not that I’m afraid of responsibility.
My fear is one of abandonment. If I express myself, if I allow myself to be happy, I will be abandoned. Life isn’t supposed to be this good is what part of me believes.
And so as I fly to Bali today, I’m wrestling with the guilt that I don’t deserve this and the belief that even though this is happening now, it won’t keep happening.
And in each moment I inhale my stress and exhale surrender.
It’s really funny how much I keep happiness out because I’m afraid of being hurt and yet happiness is all I want – and by keeping it out, I don’t allow myself to feel the happiness I know I really desire to feel.
And it’s all a perfect lesson and certainly a quality problem to have.
Please do not take this blog as me complaining. I am not complaining. I feel that I would be doing you a disservice if all I wrote about were my gratitude and good side, without revealing my fears and insecurities as well.
So these are my steps for overcoming this fear:
1 – I’m going to accept that I have it.
2 – I’m going to look for evidence contrary to my fear.
3 – Who would I be without the story of abandonment? I would be free.
4 – I continue to remember that life is not about me and what I want, per se, but truly service and helping others. When I focus on helping others, my problems lessen and I feel a sense of contribution and connection.
How can you step into your greatness and own your blessings today?
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Love from Bali,
Mastin Kipp is the founder and CEO of The Daily Love. Follow him on Twitter here.
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